She was the kind of girl who would be racing to send you a reply on her phone because she didn’t want you to think that she was making you wait.
One day, you’re going to wake up and you’re going to realize that she’s no longer waking up beside you -and she’s probably going to be waking up elsewhere for the rest of your days. She’s actually going to choose to be with someone who deliberately chooses to be with her every day. She is going to choose to love someone who loves her back just as much something that you never did for her. You might cross paths a few more times in the future, but it won’t matter much to her. She might not even take notice of you because she’s too happy with the love that she has now. She will look like that same girl who once loved you but with one significant difference she loves someone else now.
She will no longer look and lock eyes with you the way that she used to. She is no longer going to drool over the sight of you. Her heart is no longer going to skip a beat at the thought of you. She isn’t going to romanticize you any longer. Know why? Because when she found out that you would never be willing to give her the love that she gave you, then she just chose to devote all of that love to herself instead. And she became infinitely happier as a result. You are going to notice a confidence in her that you’ve never seen before the same kind of confidence that you threatened every single day you were together.
And when you start to take notice of the fact that she’s more sure about herself, you’re going to feel a pinch of regret. You’re going to kick yourself for not loving her the way that she deserved to be loved. You’re going to regret losing a girl who only wanted to love you.
You’re going to miss her so much but you’re never going to get the chance to win her back. You are going to grow regretful of the way that she chose to love you convincingly and wholeheartedly. She was the kind of girl who would always be ready to talk about you and make you the center of attention in the relationship. She was the kind of girl who would be racing to send you a reply on her phone because she didn’t want you to think that she was making you wait. She was the kind of girl whose phone calls you rarely ever returned because you didn’t think she would be worth the time.
And then you’re going to give in to a few of your temptations. You’re going to look over your old pictures and mementos. You’re going to reminisce about the great times that you had with her and you’re going to learn to appreciate them now because you never really did make the effort to appreciate them as they were happening. It’s only now where you will really start to take notice of the little things that she did for you and the relationship. It’s only now where you will really develop your attention to detail. It’s only now where you will really learn about just how good you had it and how stupid you are for letting it go.
You’re going to miss the times where she would randomly bring you a gift just to showcase her thoughtfulness. You’re going to miss the times where she would try to hit you up just to check up on you and see how you’re doing. You’re going to miss how she always told you that she loved you consistently – to the point where you didn’t really pay much attention to it anymore.
And in these moments of vulnerability, your feelings and emotions are going to come crashing down on you like a fallen building. You’re going to be remorseful at the idea of you never finding another girl who will love you the way that she did. You are going to be sad at the fact that you’ve just lost a girl who deserved so much more than you ever gave her. You’re going to regret losing the girl who love you too much.
And now you’re just going to wallow in your sadness. You’re just going to drown in your sea of regret because there’s not much you can do to win her back. She’s chosen to move on and she’s happy because of it. In this scenario, you are the one who came out as the loser. You have to move on but it’s going to be so much harder for you. Because really, how can anyone ever move on from the one person who loved them in ways that no one else ever could or ever will? She was one of a kind. And you let her go.