Life is beautiful. There is no doubt about it. But you know what?
Life is also scary. It’s unpredictable, disappointing and at times, very stressful.
That is exactly why I am the way I am. A crazy, over-organized, disciplined, precise and strategic. I plan. In fact, I’ve always planned. That’s how I’ve spent most of my life. I hate being spontaneous because that way I have no control over anything in my life. And no matter how lovely it is to sometimes let it all be, in most cases, I get panic attacks and immediately take control over the situation.
I know it sounds nuts, but that’s just who I’ve always been. As I said, over-organized and afraid. Afraid of what the future holds, afraid of the unknown, of the world, of everything around me. So, I chose a routine. Something familiar. Something that will make me comfortable and help me be more confident in life. Something that will help me continue walking the road that I’ve chosen.
But the problem with my story is that in that process I forgot one, a very important thing.
You can’t plan life. No matter how much you struggle to make something perfect, you cannot expect that things will always go your way. You can do everything according to the vision you’ve had in your head, but then, no matter how perfect and flawless your master plan is, life will always rearrange in whatever way it sees fit. Because, in the end, that’s life. Spontaneous. Unpredictable. Unforced. A free-flowing river.
You can, of course, spend your life struggling to make things go your way, deal with deadlines and stress about imperfections, be terrified of the future, and avoid changes at all costs. You can do that. But it will get you nowhere. Especially not anywhere near your happiness. Choosing that life will force you to detach from who you are and focus on who you want to be. As a result, you’ll no longer be right here where you need to be – the present moment, because you will be busy imagining your future.
And for what? Because of your fear of the unknown? Your fear of failing? Making mistakes? Being spontaneous? Letting everything just be?
To hell with that. To hell with all those rules.
I know how it feels. I’ve been there my whole life. And no matter how much I struggled to have that life, I no longer want it. I no longer want to hold myself hostage. I no longer want to rush through life. I no longer want to live it by certain rules. I no longer want to be scared of my future. I no longer want to avoid change. I want to be free. And I want to experience it all.
Because if there is one thing I’ve learned from my experiences than that’s this. There is no such thing as a coincidence. No matter how difficult life is right now, everything that you are going through has meaning. Every heartbreak, every failure, every tear you cry is for a reason. It’s all a part of the bigger picture. So, why neglect it? Why avoid it when it’s also a part of your life? A lesson that you need to learn to keep moving forward…
Let’s learn to trust the timing of our lives instead and carry on with our journies… We have long way to go and only one life to live.
