He makes me happy so much and we have been through a lot together. We have actually made a lot of plans and honestly I saw a future with him. Just last week, I travelled to his place to spend the weekend with him. I haven’t seen him in over three months which is one of the longest time we’ve spent without seeing each other. I was caught up with a lot of tasks so I couldn’t travel to see him as I used to. He was so happy about me coming to see him. I was excited too.
When I got to his place, he had a lot of things put in place, he also changed his home’s decor to my favorite color and also included some things I usually to casually say. I never really knew he took note of them since I said them in passing yet he went all out to effect the changes I fantasized about. It really melted my heart. He said he wanted us to have a special dinner date at least to make up for all the times we’ve been awake. He took me to this expensive boutique and shopped a lovely dress with matching accessories for me.
We went for the date as planned. It was an exquisite lounge which he booked specially just for the both of us. Booking such a place would be so expensive and I didn’t even dare to ask how much the space was worth. Halfway into the dinner, he proposed to me. It was just the both of us. I was flustered, confused yet I didn’t want to spend a moment without him. I said yes of course but lately I’ve been so unsure about what I want. Yes, I definitely want to spend my forever with him but I’m just not sure I’m ready to start a family yet. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to tell him to wait neither do I want to lose him. I’m confused and scared? Is it okay to feel this way?
