As I was twisting my cup on the countertop, I realized I had once been writing a journal. After hours of searching for it, I finally found it hidden in an old shoebox.
So here I am, flipping the pages of a dusty notebook and this is what caught my eye: I woke up with a terrible headache. On my way to work, I bought a coffee in the hopes to make the headache go away but the coffee was terribly lukewarm and way too milky for my taste. Ugh, a horrible start of the day already. I hate when this happens!
Waking up to a headache sucks but what is worse is hoping for that good coffee to make your day brighter just to end up bitterly disappointed with so much as the first sip from the cup. And it’s not just coffee, we end up living our whole lives only partially satisfied if not completely dissatisfied and miserable.
Why do we do that to ourselves? I guess the fear of speaking up, the fear of having everybody’s eyes on us, and the fear of being finger-pointed or gossiped.
We pretend not to care, we pretend to give zero fucks when in fact maybe we should show that we care. We should show or signal that something is important to us because what is the alternative? Spending a lifetime with mediocre friends, shitty coffee and shallow partners, I guess.
We should fight for what matters because if we don’t, we are likely to attract only people that don’t care as well.
Friends that use us for the ride or friends that go out with us just because they have no one else at the moment or because they want to get drunk and don’t care who are they going to do that with. Lousy boyfriends and girlfriends that stay with us simply because there is no one better at the moment, and coffee that is too milky, far too sugary or with an aftertaste you want to kill yourself.
Life is too short to settle down for mediocre and lousy; too short for words like average or good enough.
No, don’t settle for that. You deserve so much more.
Of course, we can’t have the top of everything and of course, we can’t be so picky about everything, but there are things which are the foundation of life, and you don’t gamble with those things.
You don’t gamble with the things that are up to you, the things you can control. So yes, drink that good champagne, that good coffee and treat yourself. Don’t go out with people that make you feel bad about yourself; whose standards you have to chase – go out with those that lift you up and revitalize your energy.
I don’t care is not cool and being silent about the things your happiness and well-being depend on is not cool either.
It’s cool to show that you care and it’s cool to fight about what you deserve. Correct me if I am wrong.
That old diary served some good purpose, after all, I think. If you liked this article feel free to share it with others as well. Encouraging fierceness and boldness add up for self-improvement, cheers.
